10w2d

So much has happened in the last 2 weeks. I had another spotting episode. I called my OB since I had graduated from the RE and they said to call the RE since they dont have ultrasound equipment (something I dont like about that office). So I went into the REs office and saw the little gummy bear with a nice healthy heartbeat. It was swimming around, I couldnt believe it! We could even see fingers, amazing. So we are pretty confident that the baby is healthy and happy in there.

We decided to share the news with my moms family last week (those that didnt already know which it turned out to be only 2 people!) and my dads family this week at a communion party. Everybody was so excited, it was a lot of fun.

Oh and in other pregnancy related news, I am wearing maternity pants for the first time today. I am sick of my bella band, it sucks. It is a knockoff from motherhood which is probably why it is horrible but I just cant stand it anymore. It keeps rolling up and exposing my unbuttoned pants. So my cousins wife gave me a bag of clothes this weekend but no work pants so I went out and got 2 pairs yesterday. They are so much more comfortable and I can let my belly hang out all I want. My mom was with me when I was shopping and she was shocked at how big my belly is. It is definitely bigger than average but I have lost 7 lbs and not gained any of it back so it's not because I am eating too much. Must just be bloat. Plus, I never claimed to have a flat stomach before all of this started so that is definitely contributing too.

In kitchen news - yes we are still working on the kitchen - the counters should be here on the 1st and everything should be finished the next day. I am thrilled! I can't wait to get my house back. It took much longer than we originally thought because of the counters but I really wanted them so it's worth it.

Also, we booked a vacation to Sanibel Island, Florida for June! Hooray! It will be our babymoon. I can't wait to get away for a little while. Hopefully I am not sick anymore!

8w1d

So a few things to report. I spent Wednesday night at the ER because I hadnt been able to keep anything down for a while. I was worried about the baby so I just got filled up with some fluids. The offered to admit me but I wasnt really interested in staying so we came home a few hours later. If it happens again, one my aunts will just give me the IV at home, they already brought home the supplies, it will be a much nicer experience. Not that the ER was that terrible but it was uncomfortable and not home.

In other news, I had another appointment on Friday and I GRADUATED! It was so unexpected but I am really excited. Sad to be leaving the amazing doctors and office but glad to be moving on in the pregnancy. My mom went with me and got to see the baby and heartbeat, it was very exciting. The baby looks like a gummy bear now and has a nice quick heart beat of 160. It was really amazing. I am kind of sad that I wont be having an ultrasound for a while, I will ask for the NT scan so I can have another one in a few weeks. I have my first OB appointment in a week and a half.

Kitchen update: They started the kitchen Thursday and completed the demo and even put up some of the wall cabinets. Tomorrow they should do the floor and then I imagine it wont be too long after that. We still need to get the dishwasher, microwave, tile, sink and faucet. Ok that's a lot, we need to get moving. It will be our fault when this takes forever to finish.

7w4d

Not much to report. I am still sick. They gave me a new prescription but it hasnt been helping much. I can really only eat popsicles and water ice. I cant even eat soup anymore. I am so freaking hungry and I am starting to feel sick from being so hungry in addition to the all the time sickness, it is super fun. 5 more weeks? I was home yesterday and today which made it a little easier to deal with but tomorrow I am back to work. There are deadlines and deadlines dont care if I am sick. Not much is changing with my body. I am actually down 7 lbs. but I feel like maybe my uterus is getting bigger. It is very possible that I am imagining it though. Also, I have pretty much constant lower back pain. I need to start doing some yoga to gain some strength down there and stretch it out.

In other news, they are starting on our kitchen tomorrow and we havent even started to get ready. We are awesome planners. I didnt want to clean everything out if we didnt know when they were going to start so I have been putting it off. Of course, I cant help because 1 - I'm sick and 2 - after the spotting, Dr. F told me to take it easy and I think climbing up on cabinets would not be taking it easy, so Brian has to do it all himself tonight. Awesome fun. I hope we have enough boxes!

Finally, I just wanted to mention that yesterday I was 7w3d and that is when I found out about the missed miscarriage with the last pregnancy. Since I have seen the heartbeat twice and everything looks good (and I am so sick) I am actually feeling like I passed a huge milestone and everything is going to be fine from here on out. I am really pregnant and we are really going to have a baby in November!

6w5d

Phew! Everything is fine! There is a whole long story but I dont have time to write about it right now. The good news is that we saw the heartbeat and the baby is measuring a day ahead. Dr. F couldnt find a source of bleeding so he said just to take it easy, it could just be old blood. I am still very nervous but hearing the baby's heartbeat this morning was amazing! We have a 9mm little baby in there! I can't believe it. First scare down, many more to go I'm sure. This is not going to be an easy pregnancy but it will be worth it!

6w4d

In this post I was going to complain about how sick I've been and how exausted I am but I am spotting and that seems like silliness now. I know I shouldnt complain and I should be grateful but do I really need to go through this to learn that lesson. This cant be happening again, it has to be nothing. Dr. F is having me come in tomorrow instead of Friday. He said everything has been going really well and that it is probably nothing, I think it's over though. I dont know what I will do if this is the end. I cant imagine starting over. Will I have to wait another year before we get a chance again?